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Breastfeeding and Postnatal depression and anxiety -
a story of two mums and their personal struggles that is all too common with many many mothers today. |
It goes without dispute that breastfeeding
is the gold standard for infant feeding. We know the undeniable health risks of
not breastfeeding for baby and mum. But what about the health risks of
depression when the woman identifies breastfeeding as the sole or major
contributing factor to her low mood. The health risks I speak of are serious indeed;
harm to the baby or self harm to the mother, also psychosis and even suicide.
It is dark and scary to think about, but this is real. Women need non biased,
non judgmental support by family and health care providers to help them identify
and address their mental health issues postnatally and to find the method of
feeding that is right for them and their family.
Just as every baby is different, so to is
every family. As much as I am and always will be the avid supporter of
lactation, I am the first to acknowledge that breastfeeding is NOT for all
families. Whilst the thought of continuing to breastfeed for one mum may seem depressing,
difficult and impossible, for the next mum, the thought of quitting
breastfeeding can be equally as impossible and heart wrenching.
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Susan with Cooper and Miles.
This photo is forever imprinted in my mind. I first seen this photo when my twins were 8 months old and i related to my dear friend on such an intimate level, this photo was how i had been feeling the last so many months. To me this photo reflects completely the internal conflict of complete and utter love and adoration for your children and complete and utter fear that you might make a decision that impacts them negatively and the hopelessness over not really having control. |
Let me introduce two mums, first time mums
of twin boys born a day apart from each other. These mums were proud as ever
about the dramatic entrances these four little men made into the world and how
far they all had come, given their rocky starts to life. For both mums parenting twins was hard from
the get go. The shock of reality was such a blow; the hardest part of all was
the reality of breastfeeding. The idealistic quiet nursing sessions, the
fantasy of returning the sleeping babes their beds was so far removed from the ceaseless
tandem feedings, the pumping, top ups of formula, low supply and the constant
unsettledness of the two demanding creatures that they somewhere, deep down,
adored. Breastfeeding was staring these mums in the face. Its like there was a
forked road ahead and above the road was a massive neon sign flashing
BREASTFEEDING. If life was going to look up a decision had to be made, the decision
was to continue to breastfeed or, let it go. Both options difficult, both
involved different struggles, but they eventually had same end result, the
promise of a more settled, more manageable and eventually even, a happier day-to-day
life.
One of these mums was me. I chose to
continue with breastfeeding. I knew it was a going to be a struggle, I was
fearful of how long the struggle could carry on for but what I was more fearful
of, deeply, deeply, fearful of, was the depth my depression may go if I decided
to no longer breastfeed. For my mental health I HAD to choose the road to
continue breastfeeding.
The other mum, Susan, a friend of mine who was so
pivotal in my early parenting journey, chose the other road. For her and her
family not continuing to breastfeed wasn’t the end of the world, the difficulty
of day to day life whilst struggling with breastfeeding and the impact it was
having on her and her family was. This truly was the hardest decision of her
life to date. For this family, to let breastfeeding go and take the road that
meant leaving the feeding fight behind was the road to lifting her moods and
finally after a long journey a happy family.
Everyone’s journey is unique and we all
find healing in different ways. I finally mastered the art of breastfeeding somewhere
around the 8 month mark after a slow and difficult up hill battle. My
depression was continuing but manageable. Breastfeeding and the journey I went
on was something I was proud of and i continued to breastfeed the twins until
they were 28mths old. I am to this day certain I made the right choice. I still
fear the place I could have gone, had I chose to stop breastfeeding.
After giving up breastfeeding her twins
around 12 weeks of age Susan experienced much difficulty with her emotions.
Life was settling in to some sore of more mother friendly routine but she was
plagued with guilt for not being able to continue breastfeeding. Susan valued
breastfeeding so strongly and wanted so badly to give to her babies this gift
that only she could. Susan is a strong woman, she had a wonderfully supportive
husband and family and grew a strong network of mother friends. This support
got her through. She became proud of her breastfeeding relationship with her
twins, she was proud of the fact she was able to identify the problem and the
solution and she was gratified by the fact that she chose the best decision for
her family. Susan never hid the fact that she was disappointed that
breastfeeding didn’t work for her and her boys. Susan was always supportive of
others breastfeeding, she supported many a new twin mum of the Multiple Birth
Association and the Australian Breastfeeding Association. Choosing to give up
breastfeeding the twins was potentially a crippling decision, but because of
the support around her the difficulty the decision brought upon her was much
shorter lived. The decision became critical in resolving the depression and
anxiety she was experiencing.
Susan finally fulfilled her deep desire to
breastfeed when her daughter was born, the couple went on to have a very
special and healing breastfeeding relationship which continued into her third
year of life.
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| Things are finally smooth sailing at 8mths of age. |
We both made the right choice. We both made
our decisions based on what we knew at the time and what we thought was right
for us and our families. As good as breastfeeding is for baby, is it still as
good for her if mum is unable to look at her baby and smile? Is ceasing
breastfeeding because mum can get more sleep or have someone else help with
feeds better for mum if her depression is only going to be worse off due to
feelings of guilt and failure? Mums don’t need to be told what is best, they certainly
don’t need to be judged. They need support.
Once the mother is feeling supported and
her struggles are normalised by the network around her, they don’t seam as big
and insurmountable anymore. If though, despite the help and care she is receiving,
in spite of the mothers groups, breastfeeding groups, counseling etc, she
continues to struggle and her depression continues or worsens this may signify
a more chemical depression and therapy may need to continue with the
introduction of antidepressant medication.
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Breastfeeding became my safe place,
providing me so many quiet moments in the day. |
With the right support and medication where
appropriate breastfeeding is able to continue, breastfeeding actually plays an
important role in the maintenance of keeping depressive symptoms at bay. One of
the main hormones released when breastfeeding is Oxytocin, this chemical is
known as the love hormone. Oxytocin is an endorphin, a natural opiate. The release
of it in to the nursing mothers blood stream reduces and counteracts the
effects of adrenalin and depressive symptoms are lessened. I am sure in my case,
as a breastfeeding mother with depression, my symptoms were more stable due to
the numerous sessions of breastfeeding day and night. For me, breastfeeding
appeared to act as antidepressants had in the past.
Most women concerned about their emotional
wellbeing will make contact firstly with their GP, sometimes even before
talking about how they’re feeling with their partner. An ill informed GP might
hastily put the woman on medication and insist that therefore breastfeeding
would need to be ceased. It is true that
medication may well be warranted, but it is often not the first line treatment
unless the PND is particularly severe. A mother and baby friendly GP will start
by ensuring the mother is aware of and has access or referral to community
supports and psychological counseling. This GP will also know that very few
antidepressant medications are contraindicated in breastfeeding.
Getting proper support from a counselor or
psychologist is imperative to getting to the bottom of your grief. If
antidepressant medication is indicated in your situation counseling is still important
to gain a deeper
understanding about your depression, its origins, its triggers
and also to learn strategies to cope for long term maintenance of your
depression.
Some women need to look outside the square
of GP and regular counseling as breastfeeding your baby can resurface other
difficult emotions related to their breasts and body image. For example,
breastfeeding can be a massive stress to women who have a history of sexual
abuse or eating/body image disorders and specific therapy related to these will
be integral in reaching a level of acceptance and salvaging the breastfeeding
relationship whilst also managing their depression and/or anxiety.
Some personality types and breastfeeding
don’t blend well together, but what ever your personality one thing that’s for
sure is breastfeeding is the biggest test of patience most mothers will even
experience. Breastfeeding and rules do not mix. Timing feeds, schedules and routines
can make for stressed and deflated mums. I believe this has to do with our expectations
about motherhood and newborn babies behavior. What our generation knows
culturally as normal infant behavior is based on formula fed babies. When our
breastfed babies don’t sleep much, want to be held all the time and feed frequently
we think something is wrong. We blame ourselves. We think we have failed.
In my practice the most common people who
instill this self-doubt in new mothers are unfortunately the health
professionals. Be them midwives, child health nurses, lactation nurses,
pediatricians or other, we constantly hear “give them a dummy, don’t give them
a dummy, don’t feed to sleep, don’t share your bed, baby should only feed this
long and this amount of times”. Most often than not the moment of undoing is
when mum begins to listen to this advice over the advice of her own gut.
Ignoring our deepest instincts can become truly exhausting and disheartening,
no wonder we become depressed.
I wish for all mums to be able to be
supported in their family unit, however small or large that network is, to not
have to fight for what she feel is right. If she is supported then she is able
to safety to explore and dig deep, to know what really is the right decision
for her at this particular point in time. For me, I owe the success of
continuing to breastfeed through depression to a close network of mummy
friends, my twin mum friends, breastfeeding or otherwise, who I could look at
them and their babies a few months older than mine and think, “they got there, they’re
still alive, maybe well be ok”, and stubbornness.
Be stubborn, if everyone around you thinks
they know what is right for you and it is different to what you think is right
for you, then stand firm. If you think giving up breastfeeding going you make
your depression worse, fight for it. Its worth it!
Final Words...
For my third baby, Rhys, i never even once had to consider the option of not breastfeeding. My experience with the twins provided all evidence i needed.
It was again, albeit a different one, an experience of breastfeeding through depression.
I have chronic clinical depression, mothering with such a mental health disorder has been constantly challenging and i am to this day battling and learning as i go, for the first time ever i think I'm actually winning.
I will blog more on my mothering journey in the future, for now though, never give up hope that things will get better. With the right treatment and support you can find the light. I did and I'm finally smiling again.
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Until next time...
Louise xxx
